I don’t know why that up till now, I do not have the confidence to speak up when dealing with people much more senior (both in terms of age and position) than me.
Like in the course we had yesterday, to further clarify the answer to a question that my CFO post to the trainer, in front of a classroom filled with senior managements. My heart just thumped in and out like a shy fifteen year-old being approached by her first crush. I will usually shy away from answering and just let someone (am sure that I am not the only one in the room) volunteers to explain. I don’t know what possessed me to just speak out loud the thoughts I have formed in my head, but end of the day, I am glad I did it, because it is just another baby step for me to overcome my fear.
Sometimes, I really want to overcome this fear (and lack-of-confidence) so that I prove to them that I am not just some young kuchi-rat with no substance whatsoever. On the other hand, I don’t wanna make a fool of myself in front of this people that are sometimes just too hard to impress. It is afterall better to be silent and be thought a fool, that to speak out and remove all doubt isn’t it? Or maybe not?
Top ten things you WOULDN'T want to do on the first date
This is based on my personal experience going on a "date" with my brother, Ben. All this happens in just ONE DATE, so you need not imagine why my brother is still single until now!
I went on movie 'date' with my brother just recently to catch the much talked about Inception. We decided to walk to Tropicana Mall [Buzzer sound! Note, we walked, not drive. Imagine my brother bringin his date who is all dressed up in heels, running across the highway, under the hot blisterin sun! Tsk, PHAIL #1]. We walked up to the lady at the cinema booth and I told her we needed two tickets, and while she was printing the tickets, I looked at my brother and my brother looked at me, lovingly.
"Eh, I thought you are paying" he exclaimed innocently. [Buzzer sound! He made me pay! HE MADE A GIRL PAY! HOW CAN? Tsk, PHAIL #2]. So I took out my money and paid for the two tickets. Not a word of 'thank you' from his mouth [Buzzer sound! Do not even have the basic manners of minding his P's & Q's. Tsk, PHAIL #3]
Since there was plenty of time, we decided to try out the bubble tea shop at the lower ground, Ingentis Bubble Tea. He then made his order, and when he realised that I am not getting any for myself, he said this "Eh, I am NOT sharing this cup okay!" [Buzzer sound! Even if a girl does not want it, at least have the courtesy to make an offer. Not only that, but displaying of selfishness and uncaringness? Such a big turn off. Tsk, PHAIL #4]. As he took his cup and poked the straw into the cup, the content of the cup spilled out and it ended up on my dress [Buzzer sound! Displaying his lack-of-intelligence. It doesn't take a Neantherdal to learn to use a straw right? Tsk, PHAIL #5]. Not only did he not apologise or helped me to clean up, but this fella burst out laughing [Buzzer sound! Laughing at other people's misery is a no-no, laughing at your date's misery is a bigger no-no, but laughing at your date's misery that was cause by you? Tsk, PHAIL #6].
We walked away from the place, slightly embarrassed as all eyes were turned to us. As we headed to the further end of the crime-scene, he burst out laughing again [Buzzer sound! How can he still be laughing? Tsk, PHAIL #7]. After he was done with snorting and laughing, he drank his bubble tea and commented that it didn't taste that nice.
"How come they don't make bubble tea like the used to? How come they don't make it like Alexis Mui* does?" he said with a grinning smile [Buzzer sound! Praising the girl that he had a 'past' with, how stupid is that? Tsk, PHAIL #8].
Anyways, he proceed to buy a block of soap from Gurdian, and after paying for it, turned to me and asked "Can I put this in your handbag?" [Buzzer sound! Treating a girl's handbag like a kangaroo pouch? Or Doremon's pouch? Hello? And no please at that! Tsk, PHAIL #9].
Ended up watching the movie, which we both really enjoyed (IMHO it was one of the best movie I had watched in years).
However, end of the day, I still can't get over the fact that my brother is such and insensitive soul when it comes to dealing with girls. And he reads , Men Are From Mars and Women Are From Venus at that. [Buzzer sound! Even after reading this book, he can still make all the above highlighted mistakes? Totally write-off man. Tsk, PHAIL #10]
Absolutely & hopelessly a phailure isn't he?
* wonder who is Alexis Mui and her history with my brother? Ask him...they go a long way back. Long, long way back *wink*
Finally satisfied my crave for this king-of-fruits with Su today at Uptown Durian Station (right opposite Starbucks).
Settled for D88 and X0 among the various type of durians available- Durian Udang Merah, D24 & other variations of D-double-digits. If I am not mistaken, they even have the King of Durians - Mau Sang Wong (or also known as Durian Kunyit).
Paid RM45 in total which works out to RM12 per kg. Don't recall if we paid this much last year and not sure if it's worth paying that much, but heck, it's only once a year!
Su, let's make this our annual durian feast meet-ups ya? :)
Ever felt like trying to run away from your problems?
Just go into that secret hiding sanctuary where you leave your worries and care behind?
I often wonder if there is this ‘special place’ that I can go to and not have a care in the world.
A place where I will start afresh, choose a new name (that my own parents can properly pronounce), choose a new line of work (definitely not accounting), make new friends, learn new things – in a nutshell, be anything I wanna be.
I’m very sure I’m not alone in this. I’m sure that there is at least one of you who would concur with me.
But I realize that no matter how far and hard I run, I can never run away from God.
I never thought that a forwarded email from a colleague to me with a collection of Christian comics could change my mind on certain things.
Yes, so at times I don’t wanna be the Kath I am now. But I guess if I look back those 24 years of my life, and set my grey(or gray)-matters into deep-reflection mode, I can honestly say I wouldn’t have my life any other way!
To have shared the bond, love and family-ties with family members.
To have shared the joy and sorrow of friendships that stood the test of time.
To have riden the up-and-down waves of being in a relationship.
To have had all the tears, sweat and toils of being an auditor and an accountant.
Coz it is indeed part of our heavenly Father’s plan for me. Afterall, he is the author and perfector of our faith.
And what good is a life story without a lil drama in it eh? :)
Sometimes it feels like a burden that I have to carry.
To be sensitive enough to sense that you're spiritually dry.
To be wise enough to find your missing ID or to suggesting workable and sensible solutions to your problem.
To be patient enough to drive around close to the middle of the night to look for a brush.
To be understanding enough to listen to your problems and to be insightful enough to advise you.
To be caring enough to provide for what you need and to be tactful enough to tell you off for the things that you want but do not need.
But end of it all, the appreciation I get from all this, even if it's just a simple "thank you" sms or being tagged in a Facebook message that says "you make me smile" makes all this effort worthwhile.
Because I love them so
and they mean the world to me....
You know it's bad when...
... you're still awake at this hour and have only had 6 hours of sleep for the past two days
You know it's really bad when...
.. you're still awake at this hour and have only had 6 hours of sleep for the past two days and you are contemplating to resort to you ol' habit of beating this insomia which you are made fully aware of the consequences and long term implication of it
You know it's really, really bad when...
.. you're still awake at this hour and have only had 6 hours of sleep for the past two days and you are contemplating to resort to you ol' habit of beating this insomia which you are made fully aware of the consequences and long term implication of it and you actually don't give a damn bout it!
Had a good time catching up with SJian & Jes today. It's been a while since I have any social contact and this was indeed a welcoming break from all the chaosness of my life right now.
There was alot of catching up to do, and as usual, time flies and before we know it, the nice patience waitress at Uptown Starbucks (our default hangout spot) had to politely tell us they are closing soon.
Listening to my currently top choice of song for my pre-wedding montage. *shall keep it a secret for now*
I went to the National Library today to return my long overdue books during lunch (which I couldn't find the time until today to do so). Borrowed another three books (that's the max per card). Hopefully with the peak at my workplace slowly unwinding, I can steal a bit more time to do some leisurely things - such as catching up on my reading and also to continue finishing my jigsaw puzzle.
On another note, I have finalised my selection of my pre-wedding photos. The designs of the album and all should be done in a couple of weeks time for us. Hopefully all will be good, but I am, so far, very satisfied with the services provided by my bridal shop.
Project Castle is well on its way, with our 'castle' taking place. The challenge that JC & I had to face is not so much so of dealing with the contractors and other vendors, but more so of dealing with my mom, who is very very particular over minuscule details. It is not easy, especially for me, to be the mediator between JC, my mom & the contractor. But PTL that up till now, I have not strangled anyone yet and have not exactly blown my top yet (but came very very close to doing so), so its so far so good. But I am continuously praying for wisdom and more so, patience to handle this situation.
Looking back this past 7 months plus, I am glad that the planning and execution is progressing well.
Way long overdue-ed pictures from dining in at Belly Good like
a good 3-4 months ago?
Check out this place if your a fan of all things porky!
Belly Good - The Pork Lover Paradise!
Baked Portobello mushrooms with bacon and cheese - how can one go wrong with bacon, cheese & mushroom?
One of my most favourite combo!
Sinfully crispy bacon bits on with cheese on top of a juicy flavourful Portobello mushroom that just melts in your mouth! Mmmmmm......
Trio platter - a combination of grilled pork belly, juicy grilled pork ribs and pork chorizo sausage soaked in lip-smacking house special sauce
(the kind of sauce that makes you wanna lick the plate clean!).
Accompanied with mash potatoes with gravy & coleslaw!
Think I will make another trip there soon to try out more of what they have to offer.
Lil Ryan loves watching daddy Bryan and the rest of us when we count and record the offerings for the day (I can see the inclination of him being an accountant one day, just like Daddy!).
Seeing his enthusiasm, I asked him if he would like to help me fill up the Form and he gleefully agreed. I asked him to fill up today’s date, which he manages to do so. I then ask him to record the number of attendees today, which I got from the people counter thingamabob.
“Ryan, please write forty seven here” I said to him as I pointed out the column for him to write.
Griping the pen, he carefully wrote 4, followed by 0 and a 7.
“Fortyyyyy sevennnnn” he said aloud.
Daddy Bryan & I had a good laugh.
To lil Ryan, forty seven = 40 and 7 = 407
Not sure if SLS can fit that many number of people anyways! :)
There are so much that I wanna blog about, and yet, here I am, staring blankly into blogspot's 'compose' page and I pretty much can't type it out.
Strange, I usually find it easier to express myself in writing that to verbalise it, but today, I had vented out all my thoughts to JC (not sure if he's listening tho, but that's beside the point).
I always have this afterthought of what I wanted to say & why didn't I have the courage to say so given the chance.
Sometimes I feel that perhaps my calling isn't in leadership. I don't think I make a very good leader, I rather believe that I make a better friend instead.
Sometimes, I feel that we leaders tend to focus so much on the petty, petty things that are actually secondary and we always again and again lose focus on the bigger picture.
I have rant this out once here before and today I am again expressing my thoughts again.
Now, if only I was courageous to say it out loud instead of keeping this thoughts to myself and sharing it with JC afterwards.
Believe that it was really a message from God and He was really urging me to share, but again, I just lack that courage. Am really praying that God grants me the boldness to speak up and the wisdom to use the right and effective words to share these messages.
To avoid a household of unwanted guests who come looking for food and water, make a nontoxic, homemade repellent.
Pour equal amounts of water and white vinegar into a spray bottle, and shake to mix. Then spritz the solution in water-resistant areas where ants are common, such as kitchen floors or the crevices in painted baseboards from which the pests often enter. You can also use the repellent outside, spraying patios, porches, and picnic tables before family and friends gather.
For some bizzare reason, my right floating ribs (aka lower ribs) is hurtin real bad. And I had high fever on Tuesday night (took paracetamol once in the evening & once at night). Recovered on Wednesday slightly, but woke up this morning with a slight fever & even worsening pain on my ribs.
1. I started working when I was 19.5 years old – out into the big bad world at such a young, tender, innocent *coff* age
2. I am not a morning person, but when I am at work, my engine automatically kickstarts.
3. I do not condone to office politics and have been staying away from it as much as I could – but I must admit it’s not easy. Thankfully there was never that much of a drama in my workplaces to begin with.
4. I would love to have a 9 to 5 job, but sadly, being in this line doesn’t permit so. So its long hours for me unless I start changing lines…
5. Prior to my first full time job in PwC, I have NEVER worked part time before. I have many friends who did during their semester breaks, but sadly, due to short breaks in between ACCA papers, I only have 2 weeks break per semester.
6. I took my first drawn salary & bought my family dinner. I then bought my brother & dad a pair of working shoes each. Come to think of it, my brother never repays the favor by buying me a pair of shoes! Need to DEMAND it from him. Teehee.
7. I am hoping to achieve a five figure monthly salary wayyyyy before I turn 30! :)
8. I reach a point in my life where I stop complaining or whining bout my job. I now see a similar pattern in my Ben & Yin. I guess it’s just the initial teething problem in adjusting to new environments and new responsibilities of life.
9. I met the love of my life on my first day of work on my first job! :)
10. If I had a dream future job – it would be to be a full time housewife with a maidservant serving me…. ahh… that’s the life :)
11. As much as I like to complain that I don’t like being an accountant, I do take pride in the things I do. I may not put in my heart & soul, but I make sure that I put in a decent effort and in exchange I do harvest just a tiniest bit of pride from the deliverables.
12. I don’t like working during the weekends, but in the event that I do, I actually felt that I am more productive during these time. I guess I can work more efficiently due to the absent of the telephone calls/emails/colleagues dropping by to chat. The 80% 20% rule I suppose :) 80% work done in 20% of time spent. And 20% work done on the 80% time spent.
13. I have thus far, worked with a couple of great, inspiring bosses (not like I am gonna get a BIG BONUS from this statement, coz they don’t read my blog to being with). I do hope that one day, in the future, I can achieve a fraction of what they have, and on the way inspire others as how they have inspired me.
14. I do wanna have some exposure working overseas, so if there is an opportunity, I am sure to grab it! Headhunters, if you’re reading this, pick me, pick me, pick me!!! :)
15. All work & no play makes Kath a dull girl, hence, that explains my personality! :)
Kathlynn Chan is a chartered accountant who blissfully married to the love of her life, another fellow chartered accountant. Kath is really just you’re average girl next door; it really doesn’t take much to carve a smile on her face or to get her laughing hysterically. Kath’s trying not to take life to seriously; her mantra in life is live a little, laugh a little and love a little more. At heart, Kath’s really just a simple city girl who is just enjoying the little joys life brings her.