Sometimes, I don't know whether to laugh or to cry at what life throws us. We muster all the courage and will to step out from our comfort zone, and then we get the complete opposite of what we expect to get.
It's disappointing and frustrating really. And it's pretty difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel, that you'd feel like turning back and going back to comfort zone, where all is safe and sound.
This isn't a ranting blog. But I suppose it will slowly become one as I have nothing but this empty void of cyber space to vent out all that I have pent-up inside.
If only I can learn to let all things go and let Him just take over the wheels. Obedience is something I have yet to master. It's very difficult to be obedience when you have your mind set on how some things should or should not be done.
I want it all back. I want the simplicity and the uncomplicatedness that I once had. Why did I let that all go? Why did I change all that I was comfortable with in exchange for unchartered territory?
So many questions, but yet, as I look back, things wouldn't have been the same if I haven't done what I did. So no, I wouldn't have traded it for anything.