.: I Wish :.

I wish I was back to five and the only important decision I had to made was whether to have Honey Stars or Koko Crunch with my milk for breakfast.

Fast forward just twenty years and the decisions that I am about to make or take, there are times where I really can't comprehend.

I fear that I will fall into the endless delusional cycle that goes round & round with no end.

I fear that I will once again experience the random opening of floodgates in the middle of the day.

I fear that I will no longer know how to laugh from the heart.

I fear that emptiness and loneliness creeps in even tho I am full and not alone.

I fear, most of all, that I lose myself again....