There are a couple of reasons why I am feeling down of late.
Some of which are directly affecting me, and some of which are not, but because it is just in my nature, I too bear the pain that others carry.
There are which, in the passing of time, that this pain slowly just fades away. But some leave behind scars that becomes a daily reminder of the pain that I have endured. Some pain just stays, and almost like a day-old itch, it doesn't bother me if I ignore it, but once I scratch it, it will just take away all my time and energy.
Many have questioned my lack of enthusiasm this past days. It used to be easier to hide behind a facade and pretend that everything is hunky-dory. But it isn't the case anymore, and putting that mask on and pretending to be something that I am not just takes too much energy away, something which I already lack-of to begin with.
I have many questions right now. Questions which I know what the final answer is - that is is all part of God's plan, but really, the heart just wants to but doesn't understand. At times, I keep my composure and cool, knowing that things will be alright in the end, but there are times where I just wanna break down and let go all the tears I am holding back.
It is just one of the more difficult times for me.
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hugs for whatever you're going through and thinking and feeling.
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