.: Hot & Cold ; Up & Down :.

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up and
you're down
-Kate Perry : Hot & Cold-

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now.

No, not suffering from hot flushes from PMS (I'm no due for PMS just yet).

And no, it's not about my relationship with JC.

As a matter of fact, it's about my relationship with MYSELF.

I just find that I'm in this IN BETWEEN stage, in particular - of my age. On one hand, I feel that I'm still young, and should still be having fun. But on the other hand, I'm shoved with "adults" responsibilities, especially in terms of my career. I know that being a qualified accountant at this age is no big of a deal, but when I look around me, and realise that there are others my age who are barely there, and those at my position are in their early 30s, I wonder if I'm really good at what I do to be where I'm right now.

And I feel that if I have progressed this much in term of my career, what about the other aspect of my life? Should it not be progressing at that pace too, so that I can progress overall? Again, on one hand, I want to - push on, so that the other aspect of my life can catch up with this, but on the other hand - I'm not sure if I'm able to cope.

Well, as JC & I continue to plan for our future, we know that ultimately, it is all in God's hands.

In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.
Proverbs 16:9

Dear Lord,

We commit all our plans into Your hands, as only You know what is best for us.
We pray that You continue to guide us along this journey, and that Your mighty plan will unravel itself. Let You will be done, not ours. Give us what we need, not what we want.

We pray Lord, for continueos wisdom in decisions we are about to make and take. And courage to overcome problems and challanges along the way.

Amen.

.: Adios 2008, Hola 2009 :.

It's that time of the year again.
The period where people take time off to reflect on the events for the past year.
And of course, many would look forward to starting the New Year afresh.

For me, as I look back, pretty much a lot that has change.
Whether it's within my surrounding environment or myself.


All that is gold does not glitter,
not all those who wander are lost.
-JRR Tollkien-

Went overseas twice this year.
One to Beijing, China in May (right before the Beijing Olympics) with my family.
And the other to Sydney, Australia in June with JC.
Was really a good opportunity for me to see what's the world like beyond Malaysia (Yes, I’m live under the coconut shell and have never really gotten the chance to travel much).
Got to experience snow in China (according to the tour guide, it rarely snows), bargaining in my half-past-six Mandarin, enjoy the scenic views of Blue Mountains (backpacked there), spelunking in Jenolan Caves, touch the blue Pacific Ocean ….
But all this traveling and wandering, it just made me realize something – that there’s indeed no place like home!


Bad luck comes in threes
-Old superstition-

Had a series of car incidents this year.
One, my bro's car battery die-ed (while I was driving his car)
Two, my car battery die-ed (coz I was too excited to play COD4, I forgot to switch of my headlights and left it running for 4 hours plus)
Three, my car back wheel tire punctured (while on the way to JC's house)
All this within a span of three months.
Thank goodness for Lonpac!


If I were a boy, even just for a day
-Beyonce Knowles-

Learned to play COD4 (Call Of Duty 4) with the big bad boyz - thanks to Sifu Drew & Sifu SJian.
Manage to kick some of the dudes' a$$, something which I'm absolutely proud of!

And just recently, had a try at Left 4 Dead, another online multiplayer game, but still have not gotten the hang of it. Practise makes (close to) perfect right? :)
Yes, I may scream like a girl!
But this is one girl with an attitude!


Change; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But heres the truth: the more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. Oh, sometimes, change is ... everything.
-Grey’s Anotomy-

Elections back in April made a tidal change for Malaysia.
Barisan lost the two-thirds majority, which they have had since independence back in 1957.
And I was part of the 10.4 million registered Malaysian voters who voted on that day.
My very first vote cast! :)
Months later, in the USA, an unprecedented moment, where the first African-American, Barack Obama from the Democrat Party, was elected the 44th President of United States.

My favourite (and only) brother left to complete his final year in Stradclyde, Scotland. A place where men wears skirts (kilts – whatever, it looks the same to me *wink*). He will be back somewhere late June or early July next year – so it’s our family first Christmas & CNY without him.
Qianhui left for the USA under a student travel and work programme, leaving me Tigger-less for 5 months, but now, my Tigger is back! Yay!
Aunty Janet from SLS with her family migrated to Melbourne, Aus.
Aunty Mandy and kids returned back to UK.
Angelia, my best friend whom I've known for almost a decade, is also migrating to Aus mid Jan next year. We have shared a lot – from studying PMR together, to playing mahjongs, to insulting men’s intelligence (or more correctly; the lack of it), to arguing if “rubber” is the right word to use. I’m really going to miss her, knowing I can’t conveniently call her as and when I like. But I know that our friendship will truly stand the test of time and distance!


The Earth is full of the goodness of the Lord
-Psalm 33:5-

I have officially passed my EE & ICAEW.
It’s truly been God’s grace that I was given the opportunity to do the EE programme.
And it was His grace too that I manage to pass my final ICAEW paper.
I’m also now promoted to Accountant in the Group, I think being the youngest here.
There were a lot of challenges I’ve faced this year, in terms of physical, emotional and spiritual. But I believe that God has been with me throughout the whole ordeal, never letting me go, when I felt like giving up.
Indeed, God has blessed me with all his goodness!


Employ thy time well, if thou meanest to gain leisure.
-Benjamin Franklin-

Been reading a couple of good books of late. To just list a few – P/S I Love You (Cecelia Aherns), Blue Eyed Devil (Lisa Kleypas), Message In The Bottle (Nicholas Sparks), Saving Fish From Drowning (Amy Tan), To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee). But to pick my favorite read for the year, I would have to say Love, Rosie by Cecelia Ahern. I really enjoyed it so much that I actually read it twice!

Also, there have been quite a number of great movies this year.
I’m utterly impressed with the late Heath Ledger’s performance as The Joker in Dark Knight.
I also adore the antics of cute lil Po, the Panda in Kung Fu Panda.
I’ve enjoyed and tapped my feet to the musical of Mamma Mia bringing back the good ol’ Abba hits.
And I laugh so hard at Rhino’s character (a hamster with an attitude) in Bolt.

Adventures locally include my very first hiking trip to FRIM (Forest Research Institute Malaysia), where I screamed my head off when I realize I had a leech on my leg.
Another screaming adventure would be taking the Space Shot in Genting Theme Park, being dropped 183 feet above the ground at free fall speed.
Visit to Kuala Selangor, to see a breathtaking natural wonder - fireflies.

I love meeting up with old friends, even though the organising part is havoc (I'm usually the one organising it), but looking back, it's all worth while.

Have been continuing or monthly/bi-monthly meet up with SJian, Jes & Drew, as what we have been doing since last year.

Also have been catching up with Fei, Xiao, Suk, Ser & Qian.

Biggest gathering so far was done just last week with the ex 5 Bataians, at Marche, The Curve.

Those who came include myself (of course) Qian, Ting, Drew, SJian, Ching, EWei, Steph, Rach, Dinah, Jeev, DHui, WLi, Nick. A couple of good news about engagements & weddings coming up (to be revealed later!). Indeed, most of us, tho look the same in many ways, have really grown up! :)

Indeed, 2008 has brings lots of ups and downs.
But one can not and should not dwell in the past, let memories be memories, and to look forward to a wonderful new year ahead! :)

Adios 2008!

Hola 2009!

Wishing everyone a Happy New Year 2009!~

.: I C U P :.

Creative toilets & urinals!

Oh look-ey here! What have we got?

Lady 1 : *giggles*

Lday 2 : Kodak moments!
Lady 3 : Soooo tiny?
Lady 4 : Whoooaa!

Lady 5 : I'm cutting that one off!

.: Tired :.

"I'm really tired of falling short of everyone's standards,

including myself"

.: Madagascar + Bolt :.

Madagascar was go0o0o0o0od....

But Bolt was wayyyyyyyyyyyy better! :)

It's soooo be-awwwwwwwsome.......

I was laughing out loud like mad on the antics of Bolt's unofficial sidekick - Rhino!

So darn funny! :)

.: Introducing : Pinky & The Brain :.

"Pinky, are you pondering what I'm pondering?"
Uh, I think so, Brain, but balancing a family and a career ... ooh, it's all too much for me.

They're Pinky and The Brain
Yes, Pinky and The Brain
One is a genius
The other's insane.
They're laboratory mice
Their genes have been spliced
They're dinky
They're Pinky and The Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain.

Before each night is done
Their plan will be unfurled
By the dawning of the sun
They'll take over the world.

They're Pinky and The Brain
Yes, Pinky and The Brain
Their twilight campaign
Is easy to explain.
To prove their mousey worth
They'll overthrow the Earth
They're dinky
They're Pinky and The Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Brain, Brain, Brain, Brain
Narf!

I love to watch this animation when I was a kid. Wonder why are they not playing it again now?

.: Good Samaritian, Bad Reward :.

What has the world come to, when genuine nice people tries to help and they get slapped with a sue!~

LOS ANGELES – Proving that no good deed goes unpunished, the state's high court on Thursday said a would-be Good Samaritan accused of rendering her friend paraplegic by pulling her from a wrecked car "like a rag doll" can be sued.

California's Supreme Court ruled that the state's Good Samaritan law only protects people from liability if the are administering emergency medical care, and that Lisa Torti's attempted rescue of her friend didn't qualify.

Justice Carlos Moreno wrote for a unanimous court that a person is not obligated to come to someone's aid.

"If, however, a person elects to come to someone's aid, he or she has a duty to exercise due care," he wrote.

Torti had argued that she should still be protected from a lawsuit because she was giving "medical care" when she pulled her friend from a car wreck.

Alexandra Van Horn was in the front passenger seat of a car that slammed into a light pole at 45 mph on Nov. 1, 2004, according to her negligence lawsuit.

Torti was a passenger in a car that was following behind the vehicle and stopped after the crash. Torti said when she came across the wreck she feared the car was going to explode and pulled Van Horn out. Van Horn testified that Torti pulled her out of the wreckage "like a rag doll." Van Horn blamed her friend for her paralysis.

Whether Torti is ultimately liable is still to be determined, but Van Horn's lawsuit can go forward, the Supreme Court ruled.

Beverly Hills lawyer Robert Hutchinson, who represented Van Horn, said he's pleased with the ruling.

Torti's attorney, Ronald Kent, of Los Angeles didn't immediately return a telephone call.

.: Row,Row, Row Your Boat :.

Row, row, row your boat,

Gently down the stream,

If you see a crocodile,

Don't forget to scream!

Ahhhhh!

= Mr Bean : The Ultimate Disaster Movie =

*screams*

Super cuteness!~ :)

.: As Random As I Can Get (Part II) :.

Lunchtime.

Surfing mindlessly while chewing on my guava.

Procrastinating on completing my ACCA membership application & ICAEW WBL questions.

Listening to MP3s.

Senior class president
She must be heaven sent
She was never the last one standing
A backseat debutaunt
Everything that you want
Never to harsh or too demanding
Maybe I'll admit it
I'm a little bitter
Everybody loves her
but I just wanna hate her
-Saving Jane : The Girl Next Door-

I finally found someone who knocks me off my feet
I finally found someone who makes me feel complete
-Barbara Streisand & Bryan Adams : I've Finally Found Someone-

I'm tired of hiding
Behind this lying eyes
How I'm tired of this smile
That even I don't recognise
-The Wreckers : The Good Kind-

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
-Howie Day : Collide-

To be a joke and look,
Another line without a hook.
I held you close as we both shook.
For the last time,
Take a good hard look!
-My Chemical Romance : I'm Not OK-

Look what surrounds you now
More than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be
-Hoobastank : If I Were You-

.: It's So Complicated... :.

….that she couldn't even spell complicated right.


That is life isn't it?

Sometimes, it is not as straightforward as we like it to be.

Sometimes, it is not always just black or white.

Rather, it is shades of grey.

Sometimes we defy logic,

And disregard reasoning.

And ignore sense.

And we end up confused over our choices and feelings.

Indeed, life is complicated,
not only for you,
for me,
but for everyone else……

.: Friday, 13 minus 1 :.

For the first time,

I'm so NOT looking forward to Friday (12 December 2008)....

Dread results day. Absolutely dread it!

1.01am Malaysian time

+18099638

Kath
(1352842) ASCS - 68 P Congrats!

*For more info - www.icaew.com*

Praise the Lord! :)

.: As Random As I Can Get :.

Random lyrics from my Mp3s :)

Maybe I don't have the blonde hair you like,
Maybe I don't have eyes like the sky,
And I'm not sure if I'm the girl of your dreams,
But I can show you what love means.
-M2M : Girl Of Your Dreams-

You will see one day
I'm here to stay
Hold your hand to me
We will find a way
-Juliet The Orange : Eyelashes-

I rather have bad times with you,
Than good times with someone else,
I rather be beside you in a storm,
Than safe and warm by myself,
I rather have hard times together,
Than to have it easy apart,
I rather have the one who holds my heart.
-Luther Vangross : I Rather-

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality prefixs name
And if I'm ugly, then so are you.
-Sugarbabes : Ugly-

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know why I wasn't meant for you
I want to take you to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?
-Mandy Moore : Someday We'll Know-

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness that I care too much
My scars remind me that my past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel
-Papa Roach : Scars-

.: Never Let Go :.

Some years ago, on a hot summer day in South Florida , a little boy decided to go for a swim in the old swimming hole behind his house. In a hurry to dive into the cool water, he ran out the back door, leaving behind shoes, socks, and shirt as he went. He flew into the water, not realizing that as he swam toward the middle of the lake, an alligator was swimming toward the shore.

His father, working in the yard, saw the two as they got closer and cl oser together. In utter fear, he ran toward the water, yelling to his son as loudly as he could.

Hearing his voice, the little boy became alarmed and made a U-turn to swim to his father. It was too late. Just as he reached his father, the alligator reached him.

From the dock, the father grabbed his little boy by the arms just as the alligator snatched his legs. That began an incredible tug-of-war between the two.

The alligator was much stronger than the father, but the father was much too passionate to let go.

A farmer happened to drive by, heard his screams, raced from his truck, took aim and shot the alligator.

Remarkably, after weeks and weeks in the hospital, the little boy survived. His legs were extremely scarred by the vicious attack of the animal. And, on his arms, were deep scratches where his father's fingernails dug into his flesh in his effort to hang on to the son he loved.

The newspaper reporter who interviewed the boy after the trauma, asked if he would show him his scars. The boy lifted his pant legs. And then, with obvious pride, he said to the reporter, 'But look at my arms. I have great scars on my arms, too. I have them because my Dad wouldn't let go.'

You and I can identify with that little boy. We have scars, too. No, not from an alligator, but the scars of a painful past. Some of those scars are unsightly and have caused us deep regret. But, some wounds, my friend, are because God has refused to let go. In the midst of your struggle, He's been there holding on to you.

The Scripture teaches that God loves you. You are a child of God. He wants to protect you and provide for you in every way . But sometimes we foolishly wade into dangerous situations, not knowing what lies ahead. The swimming hole of life is filled with peril - and we forget that the enemy is waiting to attack. That's when the tug-of-war begins - and if you have the scars of His l ove on your arms, be very, very grateful. He did not and will not ever let you go.

Please share this to those you love. God has blessed you, so that you can be a blessing to others. You just never know where a person is in his/her life and what they are going through. Never judge another person's scars, because you don't know how they got them. Also, it is so important that we are not selfish, to receive the blessings of these messages, without forwarding them to someone else.

Right now, someone needs to know that God loves them, and you love them, too - enough to not let them go.

.: Five Language Of Love :.

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Language is Physical Touch

My Detailed Results:
Physical Touch:	10
Quality Time:	9
Acts of Service:	5
Receiving Gifts:	3
Words of Affirmation:	3

Take the Quiz!

.: Losing Battle :.

Listening to : Aku Cinta Padamu (Siti Norhaliza *correction "Datuk Siti Norhaliza"*)
Time : 1.09 pm
Place : Office (Wisma Hong Leong)
Currently feeling : Melancholy
Currently need : A big, comforting hug to tell me everything will be alright

Will everything really be alright in the end?

I feel like it's just me against the world.

And it is a losing battle......

Listening to : Stop & Stare (One Republic)
Time : 1.13 pm
Place : Office (Wisma Hong Leong)
Currently feeling : More melancholy than ever
Currently need : A desperate need for big, comforting hug to tell me everything will be alright

.: Are You Smarter Than A 6 Year Old? :.

The things kids know nowadays really amazes me.

My 6 year old cousin, Eric, came down from Malacca with his parents, my poh-poh & Koh Ling for the long weekend.

The usually shy-hiding-behind-mummy cousin of mine turned into this chatter-box machine (which I believe is secretly being run by some super-still-in-the-experimental-stage Energiser batteries).

Anyways, he was going on and on about everything - from his school to his friends to everything around Tengkera (which is where his maternal grandma lives) to the magic show performed by four magician in his school (which is all "tipu one, except for they guy with a short pencil" *it's not easy to impress this kiddo now with any magic tricks*).

And he loved giving "teka-teki" (riddles). I tell you, he literally memorises everything in his "kamus" which I would think is a mini encyclopedia (judging from his description on how thick his kamus is *thank goodness it's only a mini one*). And his riddles ranges from the human anatomy to animals to planets to landmarks of Malaysia. And the landmarks has to be specifically mentioned in his mini encyclopedia, if not, your answer is WRONG.

And he goes on and on and on ..... and he never feels tired one lil bit!

I mean, this dude is like on sugar high, constantly.

Even my grandma commented "Eric, are you not tired talking and talking and talking. Even listening to you talk non stops makes me tired." :)

And, the cutest thing about him is his "rojak" vocabulary. He can switch from English to Malay in a sentence. And it's not just one word, it's like rojak phrases.

And his Malay (like all Peranakans) are flawless, that, if you did not see who the speaker was, you would think it's a Malay boy talking.

So there I was, being put under the spotlight, trying to answer the constant questions he throws out out of the blue.

I feel like I'm in a "Are You Smarter Than A Six Year Old" game show.

Anyways, at least I got this part right (which was not updated in his mini encyclopedia) - there are only 8 planets left *switch to nerd mode* as Pluto is no longer classified as a planet since 2006, but now reclassified as dwarf planet under the Kuiper Belt *switch off nerd mode*

When asked what is the 3rd planet from the Sun, and JC answered "Mars", Eric quickly interjected and answered "Nolah *slaps forehead with a big grin*, it's Earth la, haiyoh!"

Clever boy! :)

P/S : Not all his knowledge was obtained from this mini encyclopedia or taught in school or his parents, but from watching TV9 (he really impressed me by identifying a Sphinx). Oh ya, and he's a walking TV programme guide too (for relevant cartoons only).

.: Being 23 :.

I'm 23.

Such a painful reminder that not only am I not getting any younger, I'm getting so much older! :(

Anyways, big big thanks to JC for bringing me out to Jogoya for my birthday dinner & special chocolates! :) *hugz & kisses*

Also, big thanks to well wishes from loved ones! :)

.: Fireflies :.

Nature's idea of flickering lights (like those hung on commercial Christmas trees) - fireflies!

Absolutely beautiful & breathtaking!

Thanks JC for bringing me to see the fireflies in Kuala S'gor on Sunday :)

.: December Babies :.

All December babes & dudes, put your hands in the ayer!~

It's your MONTH of celebration!~

Dec 1 = Joanna Sia / Aunty Doreen
Dec 2 = Kian Tong
Dec 3 = Gayathri
Dec 4 = Kathlynn (me!me!me!) :)
Dec 5 = Pei Yin / Rachel Thong / Sheal
Dec 6 = Yee Nee
Dec 7 = Boon Pin
Dec 8 = Yee Yang
Dec 9 = David Khaw
Dec 10 = Nisha
Dec 12 = Connie / Fiona Lee
Dec 13 = K Jin / Joey Soon
Dec 14 = Zhen Yi
Dec 15 = Chia Ean
Dec 17 = Chia Huei / Evelyn Lim
Dec 18 = Yin
Dec 19 = Tse-Juie / Li Ping
Dec 20 = Lucas Choong
Dec 22 = Qianhui
Dec 23 = Keng Seng
Dec 24 = Olivia
Dec 25 = Nickerson
Dec 26 = Kah Yee / Sereen Teoh / Shen-Lynn / Aunty Lian
Dec 27 = Matthew Yong / Aunty Wee Gwek / Ching Fatt
Dec 28 = Sanjeev / Swee Ying
Dec 29 = JC / Charlotte Yap
Dec 30 = Lynn Yee / Melisa Chong / Nicholas Wong
Dec 31 = Shu Hiong / En Ruey / Licia

Happy birthday all!~ :)